I am a person who suffers depression.  Sometimes really severe, wacked out depression.  Lately, the days I'm depressed are heavily outweighing the days I'm not.  The other morning I woke up, feet all swollen, body aching, and I began a brief analysis of my current physical and mental health, and wondered just how much of  a correlation there is between the two. 

 

And then I had thought # 2.  I should put together a website.  On this website I should post my theories and test them. 

 

So here I am.  This site is not intended for the weak of heart.  Some of my depressed days can be pretty severe.  I often become morbidly obsessed with thoughts of death and dying.  Sometimes I get pretty cynical about the purpose of life, or lack thereof.  So, if you don't like hearing a depressed person whine about how meaningless ones life is, this is not a place for you.

 

However, this isn't a site for me to come to and whine EXLUSIVELY.  The purpose of this site is for self-analysis.  Therefore my intent is to list my current physical habits and my symptoms of depression.  Then my hopes are to fine tune those habits and see if my depression improves. 

 

So, why place it here for the whole world to see?  Simple.  I know how miserable I am.  And I hate living with depression.  But I know that poor nutrition, lack of exercise and ignoring self care in general won't beat the depression.  If my tests can show that we "mental people" can in fact control or at least improve our moods by taking control of our behaviors, then maybe I can help someone else.  But first I have to be able to help myself.